Beckem's Birthday Party

Beckem's birthday party was so much fun for him.  He LOVED the balloons.  I felt bad though, when it was time to open presents he just wanted to crawl around and didn't really care about the gifts.  It was so nice of everyone to come and celebrate with him. I can't believe he is one.  He is so much fun and am LOVING every second with him.  Happy Birthday Buddy!!  We love you so much!!

 I was not up to baking a cake so I just called Walmart and asked them to make him one. I was feeling so guilty because I have made all the other cakes in the past, but it actually turned out so cute and she even made him his very own. I was very impressed and the cake was so YUMMY!!

 It took him quite awhile to figure out what to do with the cake and finally he just dumped it off the plate and was putting the plate on his head.  He loved it!!

 Beckem and his cousin Jake.  They are so cute!!

 The boys had so much fun playing with Rylan and Livi, they love those girls!! 

Just when I thought I was doing so good

The night before Beckems birthday I ended up in Labor and Delivery to have them stop my contractions.  I was just sitting in a work meeting when I started contracting, that was around 4 and they had not stopped by 9 so we headed to McKay.  They gave me the horrible drug terbutaline, but it works so I just deal with the racing heart rate, the jitters and the restlessness.  When she checked me I was dialated to a 2 and 60%. We were able to come home around 1 am and get some rest. 

The next night at Beckem's birthday party I started contracting and was pretty miserable.  I finally got a hold of my Dr. and he called me in some terbutaline pills and he told me he needed to see me in his office the next day to get checked out and see what was going on.  Late that night I actually passed my mucous plug and was SO MISERABLE.  I was so nervous about what was to come and just kept praying that the little man will stay in a little longer. 

Yesterday I went in to see my Dr. and I am dialated to a 3 + and very thin. : (  Not really what I wanted to hear, but it is what it is.  I am now on modified bedrest at home, which means I just need to take it easy and I am not allowed to work until I have him.  I am just super worried for him, I hated seeing Beckem in the NICU and really don't want to see another one of my children struggle like that.  If I can just get at least two HOPEFULLY three more weeks in then I would be so grateful. 

The plan now is, I am on medication around the clock to help stop my contractions and we are just pray for the best.  Zac gave me a blessing last night, I am so grateful for the priesthood and the comfort it brings to our family. I am so excited to meet him, but the longer the better in this case.

Beckem's ONE already!!

It feels like just yesterday we were in the hospital getting ready to meet our little Beckem. I can't believe it's been a year already. He has been so MUCH FUN and the best baby anyone could ever ask for. He is so chill and so easy going. He LOVES to play with his brothers!! Beckem can say "da da, ma ma, bye, boba, ba ba (he LOVES his blanket), pa pa, and hi" It's so fun watching him learn new things. He loves to wave to everyone and blow them kisses.  We get comments EVERYWHERE we go how happy of a baby he is and that's so true.  He is always smiling and laughing.  He very RARELY cries.  We are so grateful to have him in our lives and the happiness he brings to our family. HAPPY FIRST BIRTHDAY Beckem!! We love you!!



Splash Pad

I can't believe summer is almost over and we had not even been to the splash pad once this year.  The other day I decided to stop being a lame mom and enjoy what summer we have left.  We headed to the Riverdale splash pad.  It was such a nice day and the boys were so excited to get out and play.  Just like at the pool, Beckem was such a good boy and just hung out in the stroller and watched the boys.  It will be fun next year when he can actually play with them, but for now he is such a trooper and just goes along for the ride.  After awhile he couldn't stay awake any more and just fell asleep in the stroller.  I couldn't ask for a better baby.  He makes me so nervous for the next baby because he has been so good, this next boy has a lot to live up to compare to how good Beckem has been : )  JK All my boys have been really good babies, we have definately been blessed that way!! 

North Shore

We are so lame, but we have lived so close to the North Ogden pool and have never been so I decided to go check it out the other day with the boys.  They LOVED it.  I was actually very impressesd at their lay out.  I was able to sit in some shade with Beckem while the boys enjoyed the water.  It was SO HOT and I felt so bad for Beckem because I am sure he was roasting but he was just a good sport and just hung out in the stroller by me and eventually just fell asleep.  He is such a good baby, it makes is so easy to take him places.  We will definately be going back to North Shore though, it was so much fun for the boys!!

 Even though it was like 100 degrees Beckem still wanted to cuddle with his "ba ba" (that's what all the boys call their blankets)

I am such a lucky girl!!

Isn't it sad how sometimes life just gets away from us??  I feel so ashamed of myself because lately I have been rushing so much EVERYDAY trying to fit one more thing in our busy schedules and then I get frustrated that I can't do everything that I think needs to be done or get overwhelmed with the stress of each day.  But really, I need to stop and really look at what matters most, what is most important in life. . . and that is my life NOW.  In a month or a day even, it won't matter how many things got checked off my list or how many hours I was able to fit in at work, but what will matter is the time I got to spend with my kids or my best friend.  What will matter is the friendships that our family shares and continually build, the memories we create and the fun times we have together. 

I have been so selfish lately and I feel so horrible.  As I sit at work tonight I wish so bad I could be home holding my boys and cuddling with Zac on the couch, but I can't.  I love my job and am so grateful for the career that I have, but I need to slow down and ENJOY the life that I am living right now.  Yeah an extra shift at work will give us some extra money, but in a month will it really get us that much more ahead or really matter?? 

I catch myself saying stuff all the time like, in about five years life will be so much better, but what is so bad about now??  Yeah the kids are exhausting and at times I feel like I can't live up to the expectations that come with being a mother, but really, I am going to look back at these days and wish so bad I could hold my children and play hot and cold with them or whatever adventure the day brings.  I am so blessed to have the life that I do have and I am so lucky to have FOUR of God's children to raise and return home to Him. 

I am so grateful I get to spend eternity with my best friend.  I am so grateful to have Zac!! Everyday he makes me smile and tries so hard each and everyday to make me happy even when I am a VERY onery pregnant woman.  I couldn't ask for a better husband.  It's amazing how everyday I fall in love with him over and over and just when it seems like I couldn't possibly love him anymore, I DO!! 

I am so grateful for the gospel and the love that our Father in Heaven shows me.  He has never failed me and I know he never will.  It doesn't matter what I am going through or doing I know He is right by my side helping and supporting me along the way.  I LOVE my Father in Heaven so much and can't wait to return home to Him one day. 

I am so grateful for this life I have been given and need to remember to not take each day for granted.  No my life is not perfect, but I am so blessed and have so many reasons why I should be the happiest person in the world, but I let Satin in and let him get me down.  I will try a little harder to be a little better each and everyday from here on out.  My life is so amazing and I am one lucky girl!! 

Get Air Sports

Bethany and Colt told us about this really fun place to take your kids to that is covered in trampolines. It was forever ago that they told us about it, but we never had a chance to make it out there.  On Saturday we decided to go let the kids try it out.  They LOVED it!!  Tegan and Kyson kept running everywhere just doing front flips all over.  Their favorite part was the foam pits.  They could jump and flip and land into these foam pits.  It was so much fun. Zac even got to enjoy it a little bit.  I will have to go try it out when I am not prego and can actually jump on the tramp again.  I was very impressed with this place though and it wasn't too expensive.  My kids were only $5.00 an hour to jump, which was well worth it.  I am sure we will be going back again soon.  My pictures aren't the greatest because my camera was just about dead, but i got a few pics. 

Zac and the boys are in the very back of this picture running up the walls.  They were having a blast!!