Trials

Sometimes it's hard to understand why good people have to have trials or hard times in their lives. 

When I think of my childhood all the way up to becoming an adult, I think of a lot of time spent at the Thorpe's house.  I babysat for them all the time and even when I wasn't babysitting I would go over and just hang out with Jen and the kids.  I grew to love this family almost as much as my own.  I loved to watch Greg and Jen get so excited to go out on a date with each other and Greg would comment how lucky he was to have such an amazingly hot wife and best friend.  I loved thier relationship and couldn't wait until one day I would be able to have that relationship with my husband.  Their whole family had such an amazing relationship with each other.  I have always looked up to Jen and Greg a lot. 

When Zac and I got married we weren't ready to enter the temple so we got married civily.  It was awesome to have Greg marry us and be a part of our lives.  That next year we worked really hard to prepare our lives to be sealed for all time and eternity.  We had some hard times and Greg and Jen were nice enough to let us in their house and counsel us the best they could and Greg even gave us a few blessings that were really needed. 

I have a huge place in my heart for the Thorpe family and this past week I found out that Jen was diagnosed with colon cancer.  She went in for a colonoscopy, thinking it was over kill because she was still seven years away from the age to get colonoscopys, but went in anyway because her doctor recommended it from the symptoms she was having.  The results were beyond anything anyone could imagine.  It came back with colon cancer and that week she went into surgery.  They removed part of her colon and now it is spread to the liver.  My heart hurts for this amazing family.  Lets hope that chemo and radiation can help this horrible disease.  My prayers are with the Thorpe family at this time!! 

Scary Dreams

So Tegan has been coming into our room a lot lately saying he has had a scary dream and wants to sleep in our bed.  One night while I was at work Zac told Tegan to say a prayer before he went to bed so he doesn't have a scary dream.  He was so happy in the morning when he realized he woke up in his own bed and didn't have a scary dream.  The next night I was at work again and Zac and the boys said family prayer and the boys went down to bed.  Zac told me that Tegan came back up into our room and said, "dad, will you help me say a prayer to not have a scary dream??"  So, Zac helped him say a prayer and off to bed he went.  Again he was so excited in the morning that he hadn't had a scary dream.  The next night I was home and he said his prayers and he remembered to ask once again to not have a scary dream.  In the middle of the night he came up crying and said, "mom, can I sleep in your bed, my prayer didn't help and I had a scary dream"  I told him he could sleep next to me, but  I suggested to him that he should say a prayer to help him not be sad.  So we once again prayed for help.  In the morning I asked what his scary dream was about and he told me he was playing in the basement with sponge bob and an invisible man turned out the lights and took him.  Ha ha, dang invisible man!!  

I love to watch my kids grow up.  I love that Tegan is learning about prayer and has a desire to ask Him for help.  I hope that he will continue to strengthen his relationship with Him and learn to always rely on Him for help.  

Krystal's Shower

We had a shower for Krystal this past weekend.  I can't believe in about a month she will be having little Rozlyn.  Her belly so tiny, it's hard to believe she is 34 weeks pregnant.  She kind of makes me sick, I am pretty sure I have a bigger gut than she does, but she looks so dang cute pregnant.  Our shower was an open house and we had a pretty good turn out.  It's nice to have such a supportive family.  She got a lot of cute outfits and nice stuff for little Rozlyn.  Can't wait to meet the little girl!! 

 

Boden 7 1/2 months

I can't believe Boden is 7 1/2 months now.  He is so dang cute and I just want to squish his face : )  He is the BEST baby EVER!!  I couldn't be more lucky to have such an easy baby.  I kept telling myself while I was pregnant with him that it was going to be so hard having him and Beckem so close and I just had to be strong but actually it's been so easy and I am LOVING having them so close.  It's so much fun!!

Baby Animal Days

Saturday we took the boys up to baby animal days.  I worked Friday night so I slept in a little bit Saturday before we headed up there. When we got there we could see some pretty dark clouds heading our way and Zac said, it's 100% chance rain, are you sure we want to do this?? The boys were so excited to see the animals so we decided to do what we could before the rain hit.  We got into the farm and saw one animal and then it started to rain.  We took shelter in a barn for awhile and the boys played on the hay stacks and chased some peacocks in the barn while we waiting for the rain to stop.  It slowed down so we decided to go finish seeing the animals. It actually worked out perfect because a lot of people left because of the rain so there wasn't very many people there.  The boys had fun holding all the animals and seeing all the farm stuff.

Big boy

Friday afternoon Beckem was supposed to be taking a nap.  We heard him in his room saying Da-Da.  Zac and to run somewhere and told me that Beckem was in his room calling for him.  I was watching T.V. with Teg and Ky and I figured he would just talk himself to sleep like he normally does.  A few minutes later I heard some strange noises and then a pidder padder of feet on my wood floor.  The next thing I knew Beckem was in my door way and said, "Where da da go??"  I was surprised he got out of his crib. I took him in his room and put him in his crib and told him to show me how he got out of his crib.  He threw his little leg up over the siderail and climbed right out.  He thought it was so funny.  I was afraid he would hurt himself doing this trick much longer so we set up his twin bed.  I can't believe my little man is getting so big so fast, but at the same time I am loving every minute of it, he is at such a fun age!!   

Chuck E Cheese

We took the boys to Chuck E Cheese Friday night.  We have never been there since we were little kids and I was a little frustrated driving there (Zac came up with the idea to go there) because I feel that those kind of places are just like throwing your money in the toilet, but it really was so much fun.  The look on the boys faces and the fun that they had made it so worth the money. I can't say that the pizza was that good, but the boys had a blast. 

 Bo was such a good boy and just hung out in his car seat

Easter

We had all of Mason side of the family over for an Easter dinner.  It was so fun to see everyone again and I had fun decorating for it : )  I love all the fun spring colors.

 Oh I love this happy boy!!

 These two are best buddies!!

 Look at my FOUR handsome boys, I love them so much!!

Happy Easter!! 

No sick days for mommy

This past three weeks have been kind of rough at our house. With SIX people living in one house it seems like once someone gets sick, it's a never ending battle to get rid of it. Bo and Beckem first got sick about three weeks ago and it has been passed through everyone. This past weekend I came down with it and Kyson and Tegan were about half way through it.




On Wednesday early morning about 2:00 a.m. Tegan woke up with tears streaming down his face. He told me his ear was hurting and I immediately knew he had an ear infection. I was already awake with major sinus pressure and not feeling well myself. So, Tegan and I curled up on the couch together and watch some T.V. in hopes his ear would feel a little better or he would be able to fall back to sleep. He told me his tummy hurt so I made him top roman (one of his favorite foods) in hopes that would help him feel comforted, but he couldn't eat it, he said his ear was hurting to bad. He was trying so hard to be strong, but couldn't hold back the tears at times. I couldn't take it anymore, I didn't want him to hurt anymore so we got dressed and I ran him up the ER before Zac had to leave for work. With the conformation by the doctor that it was indeed an ear infection, he was given motrin and an antibiotic and a perscription. He kept telling me his tummy was hurting so I was trying to get him to eat some crackers so the medication wouldn't make him sick, but he could only gag down one. As we got in the car and just pulled out of the ER parking lot he said, "mom, I am going to throw up" I told him to open his door and as soon as he did he threw up four times out the door. I felt so bad for him. I knew if he would eat something he would feel better, but he just kept telling me he wanted to go home and eat later. As we drove home my very tired and not feeling so good boy fell asleep. There is something so special about kids when they sleep, it just melts my heart. I carried Tegan in the house only to hear Bo crying. Tegan slightly woke up and quietly asked, "mom, after you feed Bo can you come lay by me" so I went and fed Bo, packed Zac's lunch for him and headed upstairs to lay by Tegan. My head was still pounding and I couldn't breath from my cold, feeling miserable I tried to sleep next to my sweet Tegan, but lying down only made the pain worse. It wasn't too much longer that Zac got up, came and told me goodbye for the day and then Beckem and Kyson were up for the day. With only a few spread out hours of sleep in the night another day had just begun.



We went about our normal routine wishing I could just take a nap, but with four little kids it's taking a huge risk to close your eyes, you never know what you might wake up to, like a blue painted room ha ha. So needless to say, no nap for mommy. I met Zac after work to switch cars so I could head to work. I worked until about eight, but couldn't handle the pain anymore so I came home. I headed straight for bed when I got in bed I tossed and turned, trying hot packs, cold packs, a warm bath, multiple medications, and pacing the house, I could not get the bridge of my nose and my left ear to stop pounding. It was a LONG night!!



Yet another day approached again, with minimal energy and a heavy heart I did not feel I had the energy to be a mommy today. I had to be to a work meeting at 10:30 so I had a busy morning of getting all four kids ready, getting myself ready, cleaning the house, making sure everyone was fed, packing my lunch, etc. The whole time I was so bitter and let Satan get the best of me. I kept thinking, really why do mom's never get a day off, but dad's never have to worry about anything when they are sick. (I tend to have pitty parties for myself a lot when I don't feel good) I went to work for only a few hours and then headed to the instacare because I wanted to take a hammer to my face and ear it hurt so bad. . . Only to have the doctor make up some random diagnosis about some stupid glad, whatever, I got an antibiotic and that's all I really needed.



So I came home, I was pretty bitter by now, all I wanted to do was lay in my bed and sleep with no one bugging me. I just wanted to take a SICK DAY from being a MOM and a WIFE!! After getting home and watching my boys get so excited to see me and they couldn't get their stories out fast enough about their day my heavy heart lightened. It was no longer a pitty party for myself, but such a joyous feeling to have four amazing boys that get so excited when mommy comes home. I did get to go to bed pretty early in the end, but after five hours of sleep I woke up and can't go back to sleep dang it : )



I am so grateful for my boys. It is so exhausting at times to be a mother, but it is SO REWARDING and that makes up for it. I hope my boys will always be excited to see me and tell me about their days. I love the love they bring into our home and the simple life's lessons they teach me every day. I am so grateful to have them and be able to take care of them each day, even if some days seem extra long, I wouldn't trade it for anything!!